July 17 untitled

There goes another
Added to the list of no nos
Tired of this circle of emotions
Reached too many dead ends
Turn around see a new turn
Debating as to whether to let the desire burn to take a step in the direction I see before me

There goes another moment I've seen before
This time I will do it another way
Walk backwards,expectations none
With a slate as clean as ice
Careful not to slip and fall
None to catch me yet surrounded by all

Uncertainty engulfs my soul
An inner debate of sorts
Tackle the unknown
Or return to the devil I've always known

On the grassy path,oblivious to the early morning dew
Lay down to rest this turmoil of emotions
In foetal position,mind stampede never ending
If wishes where horses I'd be a rider at noon time
Wind in my hair,sun in my face
A sudden nudge of reality wakes me

Decision made,let's walk on oh soul of mine
Still tumble on backwards,I admit am afraid...you've been around all along
Seems my eyes just opened.... my eyes,
All other senses aware of your presence
So consumed in my tornado of my heart,mind and soul.....
My eyes just opened,my hands grow warm
Absence of another no longer

Still am afraid to over indulge
Afraid to call and your presence woulda have been only in my imagination
Afraid I'd not be strong enough to walk on
I see the end of the forest...the light of noon time...run oh soul of mine
From this captivity of the tornado inside...
Hand in hand all fears embraced..run to the unknown the devil no longer your own.

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"MOTHER" inspired by Mo Handahu(www.clutchculture.com)

She sits at her table
Lost in thought
Unable to put thoughts to paper
But she knows to write this letter
She let's her fingers do the walking for her heart

Darling mother
All is well no need to wonder
If princess smiles or shudders in the coldness of lifeShe sits at her table
Lost in thought
Unable to put thoughts to paper
But she knows to write this letter
She let's her fingers do the walking for her heart

Darling mother
All is well no need to wonder
If princess smiles or shudders in the coldness of life
I follow my hearts desires
You'l be happy to know I caught my dream

All around her
Sits her art translated in creation
Her baby her love child her dream florished
Staring at her like the ribbon of a fnish line

Dear mother
Al is well no need to wonder
Love life is perfect
He treats me with the respect deserved
I love him to death,he makes my heart melt

The smiles of her brother
Rooting her on
Shoulder to lean on
Always there to say girl there is no other way
Success is here to stay
Hold on and I will help along the way

Dear mother
All is well no need to wonder
We are in good health
The Lord has us covered
We lean on each other
Closer than ever your son and daughter

On her knees
Thank you for the love
Ability to choose the right way
Be with mother
I follow my hearts desires
You'l be happy to know I caught my dream

All around her
Sits her art translated in creation
Her baby her love child her dream florished
Staring at her like the ribbon of a fnish line

Dear mother
Al is well no need to wonder
Love life is perfect
He treats me with the respect deserved
I love him to death,he makes my heart melt

The smiles of her brother
Rooting her on
Shoulder to lean on
Always there to say girl there is no other way
Success is here to stay
Hold on and I will help along the way

Dear mother
All is well no need to wonder
We are in good health
The Lord has us covered
We lean on each other
Closer than ever your son and daughter

On her knees
Thank you for the love
Ability to choose the right way
Be with mother.

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LOVE ANTIDOTE ft KAYO

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Suffocated Love

Pinned to the wall,can't breath
You want to make me happy
But sometimes baby you choke me
I know its unintentional but baby its unbearable
I want you to listen not just hear me

Screaming inside,shaking uncontrollably
These disturbed emotions I can't contain
I wanna get over this
forget it be done with it
I love you to pieces,the warmth of your hearts embraces
But sadness I cant take it
When am hurting inside I can't fake it

We won't always want the same thing...don't over think it
Its just you being you and me not being you
Accept it don't crush it
Stop talking pay attention
Not agreeing is not lack of devotion
just differences in interpretation
I know you hurting and I hate adding to it
but lets help each other get passed it.
Agree on our differences, compromise make sacrifices
meet at some point before this breaks us
cut in two separated I don't want to be.

I love you lets make this drama history
I wanna hear you out,hear me
let's break free of this misery.

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Miss Distrruction

She comes to destroy the peace.
Its not her business but she wants to be seen ,she is a disturbed soul
Her misery is greater than all other seeking company
Do not stand in her way,she comes with her entourage,
notorious for their unforgiving ways blurring my vision

For a second i loose it..control of my situation
I realise what she cant have she aims to destroy
Her intentions i cannot fathom her actions are intolerable
I wonder what goes through her mind as she wreaks havoc in my life's neighbourhood
I also wonder why she chose this exact moment,this particular time...why me

Was I in her way or an innocent by stander in the wrong place at the wrong time..
caught in this storm
Or perhaps she came here knowing i would be at this place in time
unprepared only to be trampled down

I must admit I did not see it coming,reports gave no warning
Finding myself in the midst of this crazy stampede of nature not at ease
Caught unawares,was i that unprepared..its not a good look in such situations might i add
No light ,no refreshing moments no sustaining nutrition...of the heart
Wondering when it will end before the darkness chokes me

Was all this drama necessary honestly.
The summer rain falls silently ,the Moon glows peaceful
A drizzle brings harmony but you come with brutality..
why not be like the sun..smile and move on...
but no not you that's not your nature...you go the whole 9 yards

Enough of you,back to me,with all this confusion
I try to find a solution to escape into my basement of sanity
calm appearing unfazed..waiting patiently for the storm to subside
All along plotting,thinking,planning.....
those three words mean the same thing but I am trying to emphasize

The saga continues as she sweeps so self assured,boasting of her might
Destroying a few more lives as she lingers in my life's neighbourhood
Finally she disappears into thin air,as mysteriously as she came
I say to myself,next time i will be well prepared
On my radar i will sense your existence ..as you slowly approach

Hurricane ,a severe cyclone travelling from its point of origin
Usually involving heavy rains and wind greater than 74 miles an hour!!!

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Am Sorry!!!

People say you can't like or love

two people at the same time

I used to think so too

until I met you....

I love the sound of your voice

the way you are always so real

the way you make me feel

the way you take control

and take care of it all

your sensitivity,your honesty

the way you laugh

make me smile even when times are tough

And then there was two

when I started falling for you

the husky tone of your voice

the cologne of your choice

driving my senses wild

Oh thinking of you makes me smile

gives me butterflies to last a mile

We always fighting

funny enough I still want you more

when I see you I loose control

Even though right now

you are making me sore

I know I have him and

i love him I really do

and because I cant be with you too

i got to say this because its true

Am sorry

that everyday am falling for you

Am sorry

that when am sad I turn to you

Am sorry

that when I see you I just want to hold you

Am sorry

that I like you too

Am sorry

that I have to stay honest and true

Am sorry

that deep down inside I want to stay with my boo

Am sorry

that am attracted to you and can't help it

Am sorry

that even though my mind says no my heart says go

Am sorry

we cant make phone calls

or talk no more

or kiss at the door

Am sorry

I can't do this anymore

I got to go.......

http://www.reverbnation.com/ceeceefied

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I wont ask for World peace!

A world full of havoc

I wont ask for world peace.

but that every child know only joy

every woman be treated only with kindness

every man be loved

A world of hunger

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child know no slavery

every woman know no pain

every man know no suffering

A world of torture

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child have their rights respected

every woman have their voice heard

every man walk in freedom

A world of earthquakes, tornados, storms,hurricanes and floods

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child know no fear

every woman know true happiness

every man have a family

A world of war

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child see no bombs,lose no legs or arms

every woman hear no gunshots,lose no daughter or son

every man know no torture,lose no family or friend

A world of poverty

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child know no illiteracy

every woman know no worries

every man feed and provide for his family

A world of hate and anger

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child know no loneliness

every woman know no tears of pain

every man stay to raise his kids

A world of sickness

I wont ask for world peace

but that every child not be orphaned

every woman know no cancer

every man know no AIDS

A world of so much more

I wont ask for world peace

let Miss America ask for that

what good is a wish if you cant help make it happen

All I ask is that God give every child, every woman and every man the peace that surpasses all understanding.

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Alls friends that ends friends...or is it??

 

Thinking about you

just realized i do that everyday

should i call you...maybe not

what the hell...might as well

after all i haven't heard from you in a while

oh wait..we spoke last night right?and this morning

for hours,thought it will never end

whatever point is i miss you...right now

wanna talk to you, perhaps see you

hug you maybe hold you...a little longer.. for a little while

 

I admit you make me weak

sometimes my heart skips a beat

maybe 1 maybe 2 maybe 3...maybe more

 

I read your texts over and over

waiting for your next

am reminded of you in everything i see

you are in my thoughts more than should be

you mean a lot to me.

Let me step back before i lose track

lose myself in emotions

that are bound to stay in my heart.

never to be let out

 

I admit you make me weak

sometimes my heart skips a beat

maybe 1 maybe 2 maybe 3...maybe more

 

When i see you i wanna run to you

like in those movies

then it hits me....you are not my boo

we a re just friends and even though we cool

there is something i been hiding from you

maybe there is a soft spot in my heart

a soft spot.....i like you a little more than i should

and yes i surrender these feelings for you.

 

I admit you make me weak

sometimes my heart skips a beat

maybe 1 maybe 2 maybe 3...maybe more

 

Like the desert needs the rain

from you i cant refrain

i try, even though am left in pain

but all this in vain

i admit you make me weak

sometimes my heart skips a beat

maybe 1 maybe 2 maybe 3...maybe more

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dec 30/08

 

For the moment spent in love

moments of total verbal silence

hearts conversing in tongues unknown to the mind

Almost like it was heaven ordained,

that we be together at this very moment in time

a moment spent in love.

Heartbreak,pain and tears are foreign to our hearts

hoping we will not encounter these ungodly sins

as we spend a moment in love.

Distance aches,but it is a blurry obstacle seen as part of the novelty of every reunion.yet the cause of the torture of every departure.

Reminders everywhere of a moment spent in love, a moment began months ago but still ever so fresh,like the excitement of a new love never growing thin.Oh what a great priceless moment,a moment spent in love.

 

A moment i will keep,a moment i will cherish and am glad i spend this moment in love with you.

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March 2008

This has turned out different from what I thought

I always knew you were the nicest

Knowing your girl was the luckiest

But I never thought of you to be more than that

And honestly that’s the fact

You and she have lost track

And you come to me for advice

A listening ear is what I lend near

And now am falling for you

I really don’t know what to do

Because I don’t want to change things between me and you

Knowing that’s what you would want too

A friendship that’s honest and true

But I can’t be honest about what am going through

The thoughts of me and you…..

Am sorry I can’t be there for you

Like you would like me to

But I don’t want to be the bitch that split you two

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got to get something off my chest

i want  to  speak my mind

lets rewind

to the crap i went through

when i was with you

to think i even called you my boo

 

time and again you crossed the line

trying to seem divine,heaven sent

"baby am sorry it was my mistake"

You put up a front like you cared

or would forever be there

to think i trusted you,cared for you

sticking things through

what a kick in the ass

 

you must think am stupid

playing games..damn am livid

in time i caught on, to begin

i realized you are one of those men

who will never know the difference between a diamond and a stone

 

Diamonds are so divine,stones the same of a common kind

You may have taken me for granted but that's your loss and not mine

coz am a diamond and boy i will forever shine

Go on with your life,

to wish you harm would be a waist of time

and that aint my kinda charm

 

As i sit here sipping my wine

Because without you am at my prime

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your warmth to me is that one thing i most desire

as it keeps me close to you

and calms my troubles

just the fact of knowing that you are around me

gives me the peace that makes me certain

that having you by my side is what i want all the time

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S.

I wanna wake up,to a familiar face

to the warmth of your embrace

because no one can fill your place

the tenderness of morning kisses

or the beginning of forever blisses

I wanna wake up to a familiar touch

the softness of your skin

the sweet scents of you

Is all i want to breathe

as you lie next to me

I wanna wake up to days of laughter

looking forward to the mornings after

of my forever's with you

as i wake up next to you

Of all familiar faces

let me wake up next to you

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changes..

This has turned out different from what I thought

I always knew you were the nicest

Knowing your girl was the luckiest

But I never thought of you to be more than that

And honestly that’s the fact.

You and she have lost track

And you come to me for advice

A listening ear is what I lend near

And now am falling for you

I really don’t know what to do

Because I don’t want to change things between me and you

Knowing that’s what you would want too

A friendship that’s honest and true

But I can’t be honest about what am going through

The thoughts of me and you…..

Am sorry I can’t be there for you

Like you would like me to

But I don’t want to be the bitch that split you two

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your shit inspires me!!

you know, you inspire me….

Through the shit you do, Let me explain it to you

coz I know sometimes you are dumb too

Your shit inspires me to take no shit from any man

You know the kinda shit that pisses me off

Like baby I love you and he still kissing up on some other bitch

Or baby I wanna take care of you but

Can you lend me some cash till my cheque comes through

My personal favorite..Baby let me spend time with you,

But gimme a minute to make an important call

Oh..Sorry I lost track can we do this some other time

This is the kinda shit you do…and the kinda shit you put me through

The kinda shit that taught me to know your kind

No matter how smooth he tries to sound

Your shit inspires me to know who I wanna be with

And how I deserve to be treated

Like a lady ought to be,

Now take this shit you call a relationship

Out of the door with you..coz am through!!

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and you thought you were playing me...lol

You really are a dumb fool, Dumber than I gave you credit for!

Must have thought I loved you, and you believed me too!

When I said it through and through, Acting like I do

Do you realize I used you? and I played you like it was cool?

Go on and write me that song, like you the one who don’t need me

When you actually miss being next to me,

I am watching you drool, because am not a part of you,

And damn I look fine; to me life has been kind

Unlike you… you must wish you could rewind,

Without even trying, am enjoying teasing you,

Knowing you can never have this

So you better be watching it good, as I walk out that door

Like a millionaire would walk out the hood,

Smiling because all is good, coz he is on track

knowing he can do better and aint got to come back

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the reality of my dreams

I had a dream

My hands were on some sort of surface

I don’t know what it was because I couldn’t see it

But it felt good…..As I slowly run my hand over it

Feeling every curve at the tips of my finger

Ribbed yet smooth, firm yet soft

Felt almost like cashmere to the touch

My mind marveled at this mystery

My curiosity led my fingers to explore

Then I realized its rise and fall..

It was alive..Breathing

slow,silent deep breaths…a beautiful rhythm

I wanted to stay forever but like all dreams

it came to an end as I slowly opened my eyes

Seeing you laying next to me

Couldn’t resist touching you

As I run my hands on your chest

How I love having you next to me…

Beauty indescribable

From the curves on your chest

To the safety of your arms

It was almost like my dream only in reality

And you are the only reality I need

As I lay on your chest listening to you breathe

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To You My Inspiration

To everyone i have encountered in my life...
you inspire the music of my heart.
however brief you may have been around
to share a moment in my life
i appreciate it....
however good or bad the influence
it makes me who i am today
and gives me something to say
everyday i hold my pen to put a few thoughts on paper
you have been an important factor
may have added laughter
or pain for that matter
this is that one chapter
that i say......thankyou

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the highlight of my day

for everyone who has someone .....the highlight of your day

little do you know
how much i look forward to that little part of my day
when i get to sit down in the warmth of my bed
talking to you..one on one though not face to face
i feel you just as close as if you were here
when everything has been all bottled up i get to let loose knowing you understand and lend a listening ear.....
having a good laugh with not a care in the world because at that point all that matters is you
i have your maximum attention and you got mine.
every single sweet word you say is music to my ears to keep me going until the next time i get this special moment with you...the highlight of my day

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giving my all

i just wanna tell you
i didn't know this is how things would be
i had been hurt before
and i didn't wanna give my all
i didn't realize i was in this deep

you love me regardless
i know sometimes its hard
but still you hold on
giving me more than i will ever know
still you stay strong

now am letting go
letting go of the past hurt and pain
to love without holding back
bringing down these walls
breaking these chains
coz all i was is to be with you
so am giving my all

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